Let The Music Speak For Me....

So yeah I haven't been on HERE for awhile...still tryingto figure SHIT out! Plus I've been dealing with my whole R.A. disorder...and trying to get it under control. Feels like SOMETHINGS got to give. But I've been listening to a lot of MUSIC...my savior...if you ask me. Kid Cudi, Wiz Khalifa, Chrisette Michele, Pac Div, Clipse...OOOOOOH how I missed my MTV Jamz...and OOOOOOH how I love new MUSIC that really makes me feel ALIVE! SO YES...I'm posting another post FULL of music videos instead of actually writting...so YEAH....ENJOY!!!!!

I LOVE MY STORM2 !!!

So I mentioned a little bit ago that I was getting the STORM 2 for Christmas as a gift from my Step-Daddy...being that he works for Verizon Wireless! Well he decided that Christmas was coming EARLY...and I got it last week. I ment to update about it when I got it...but I can't bare to put it down to do so! AND YES...I WILL BE POSTING FROM MY STORM! I'm absolutely in LOVE with it!!!

I NEEEEEED SOME...NOW(part 3)

I need some MOTIVATION in my life to actually get up and do what I want.

#MusicAnyDay - Music Any Day

If you know me…you know that I LOVE music. At one point of time in my LIFE, I actually wanted to SING. So if you love MUSIC as much as I do, you probably have also noticed that there are no more real female singers anymore. So I just thought I would compose a list of my favorite female singers. ENJOY!!!

LaToiya Williams - Fallen Star  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlH86ozV4QA

Heather Headley - In My Mind  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7lzlitXYVfk

Heather Headley - I Wish I Wasn't  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lATq7-yzSCE

Heather Headley's " He Is"  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C3H5zMeD2Rs

Vivian Green - Emotional Rollercoaster  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2kEJipfru5E

Vivian Green - Gotta Go Gotta Leave  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3Fehnr_k-MI

Fantasia - Free Yourself  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pKSTD_6wzjI and also here’s the LIVE version  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9cnOP-5hc0w

Fantasia - Truth Is  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gblryar8-YA

Deborah Cox - It's Over Now  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_3NEQ1IqojA

Deborah Cox with R.L. - We Can't Be Friends  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGtIf4Q6_1o

Sunshine Anderson - Lunch or Dinner  http://www.dailymotion.com/video/xly57_sunshine-anderson-lunch-or-dinner_music

Sunshine Anderson - Heard it all before  http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x1i8hh_sunshine-anderson-heard-it-all-befo_music

India.Arie – Video  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHXEE7Pi6iQ

India.Arie - Ready For Love  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QFMC1N3L3n4

India.Arie - The Truth  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FzMrcHYziI4

India.Arie - Brown Skin  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGOsVnB3BOE

Brandy - Sittin Up In My Room  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DmOvILJAYK8

Brandy - Baby  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vP2HUT6Ac34

Brandy - I Wanna Be Down  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sLh3u0cZYVM and here’s the REMIX  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LthQLQMilvo my favorite verse was Queen Latifah part.

Aaliyah - If Your Girl Only Knew  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ehFDZU4hXbw

Aaliyah - One In A Million  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VKbWF1jwMhE

Aaliyah - 4 Page Letter  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_HN0GBRu10E

Aaliyah - More Than A Woman  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3NLUthL6-BU I remember me and my sister killing the dance moves in this song. I MISS HER STILL!!!

Monica - Don't Take It Personal (Just One of Dem Days)  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hf70pLv7ZUA you have to love all the old Monica joints!

Monica - Before You Walk Out Of My Life  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2ZKT_wYvsN0

Monica - Why I Love You So Much  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pmwiyQgL1A0

Monica featuring Dem Franchize Boyz - Everytime Tha Beat Drop  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jl9_GHc4hWA is it wrong that this is my favorite Monica joint…????...don’t judge me! Cause really I always wanted to be HOOD…but I’m sooo SOFT…LOL!

TLC - What About Your Friends  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVJBhDoGapM this would have not been a great FEMALE singers list without T.L.C.

TLC - Baby-Baby-Baby  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VrnBBNY5PuM this video made me want to go to a HBCU when I was younger…LOL…I know I’m not the only one.

TLC - Ain't 2 Proud 2 Beg  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AlOsU8_Rzsk this song made me the WOMAN I am today.

TLC - Creep  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PIRUhoLGby8

TLC - Red Light Special  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n_5OgerpaUo



Well that’s it for right now! Yeah so this is MORE like a list of my FAVORITE songs to sing….ENJOY!!!

I NEEEEEED SOME...NOW(part 2)

I NEEEEEED SOME...NOW

Cry Baby Boys....

I DON'T HAVE THE FUCKING TIME.....I GOT MY OWN SHIT TO DEAL WITH!

*so please man up....TY*

Pittsburgh Sound

LOL...YES I LIKE HIM! I really don't know why people don't like him...I MEAN REALLY...REALLY!

But I just thought I would share my FAVORITE song of his at the moment. SUPERSTAR!


Oh also here's a few of his lates music videos as well. ENJOY!!!






And YESSSSS I have no shame in admiting I have a lil school girl crush on him *shurgs*...but if you know me you already know that...WHATEVE! So here's one more for you, he did a FREESTYLE to one of my favorite KANYE songs...it actually made my day...once again...ENJOY!!!



Here's his MySpace Page: Wiz Khalifa

Stupid Love!!!!

I’m starting to think that I am CRAZY!!! Why else will I still allow myself to miss a boy who doesn’t miss me? I mean…I really really REALLY need to reevaluate myself. Get myself together, and figure out what he fulfilled in me…that I can’t fill myself. I should know right…RIGHT? I’m honestly starting to think that there is something seriously wrong with me….some people would say that I’m just in LOVE or I’m just plain STUPID.


STUPID: 1.) lacking ordinary quickness and keenness of mild; dull. 2.) characterized by or proceeding from mental dullness; foolish; senseless. 3.) in a state of stupor; stupefied

LOVE: 1.) a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. 2.) affectionate concern for the well-being of others.

I DON’T KNOW…YOU TELL ME!!! But what could possibly make me want to be with the same guy that has purposely lied, hurt and even made ME look as if I was the SIDE HO on two occasions. I JUST DON’T KNOW! Cause being STUPID and being in LOVE damn sure don’t LOOK ALIKE to me!!!


 *i love you monster*

The Perfect Storm...THE STORM2

AHHHHH I CAN'T WAIT TO GET MY PHONE FOR CHRISTMAS!!!




(yeah F*@K YOUR iPhone)

Going Back To School...

So I've decided that I want to go back to school, and I've also decided to major in SOCIAL WORK. I need to start getting my life together. I'm hoping to go back in the Fall 2010! I've narrowed it down to the school I want to attend already here in Pittsburgh. Wish Me Luck!!!

Good Bye...See You *maybe* Never

So I’m back to being SERIOUSLY single. And can I just say *UGH*…so not what I wanted. But hey…I’m no one’s babysitter, mother or psychiatrist/psychologist…so at the end of the day, it’s probably best we separated*Kanye Shurg*. I mean I’m a definitely miss having him around…but what can you do!

One thing I do know is that I’m done with BOYS who have ISSUES. I can’t do it again, like I did with my X. I can’t stand people who think that they’re the only person who’s having PROBLEMS…nor can I stand people who complain about being in SITUATIONS that they SIGNED up for. All that “Oh I hate it here…I want to run away…it’s too hard, you wouldn’t understand…my life sucks” talk has got to go…I mean you know what you where getting yourself into.

Nor do I want someone who RUNS from their problems, instead of taking RESPONSIBLITY for what YOU did.

*ughUGHugh* DAMN IT MONSTER!!!

M.I.A.

So I haven't been on here in ages....been going thru a bunch of BULL SHIT! But I mean who isn't now and days. Not to sure if I'm gooing to keep the blog or not. You think with everything that's been going on...I'll have a bunch to say...but I really dont!!! I'll keep you posted!

My Love Life Rules...

So if you read my last post...you know that I now have a new favorite blog called IM BOY CRAZY by Alexi Wasser! So while I was reading the blog I came across this post...and realized that theses are the actual rules I use in my dating/sex life...Enjoy!!!

1. Always carry breath spray and baby wipes. Just in case anyone wants to kiss you or go down on you.

-Remember women! We don’t do anything gross! I’m not going into specifics. Let’s leave it at that.

2. Every time you have sex or mess around with a dude, you should go to your gyno and get tested for everything! That way if you get anything (even though some things show up later/and are latent) you have a better idea of who gave you what! Hopefully you won’t get a thing! But, just in case!

3. Don’t have anal sex! guys might get the impression that you’re gross! tell them you had that hole sewed up years ago and you threw away the key! why would we need a hole like that? we don’t do gross stuff.

4. Things a man should do:

A.) Hold the door for you.

B.) Offer to pay! AND he should ALWAYS pay if he’s the one who asked you on the date and invited you out in the first place. ladies, i strongly feel-and i have experienced a lot to know that the advice I’m giving you is true-that the man should for always pay. BUT, if he cant, you should SPLIT it. when a woman pays for the entire date or rent or whatever, whether he knows it or not, it’s emasculating. men, don’t be mad, I’m totally advocating an even split of the bill. i just feel like if one person is gonna pay it should always be the man. i don’t give a fuck if it’s 2008. you guys are eventually gonna ask us for anal sex, accidentally impregnate us-forcing us to either get the morning after pill, have an abortion, have a miscarriage, or be the mother of your child-so can’t you just hold the goddamn door and pay for my food at baja fresh before we fuck? Jesus! who raised you? it feels just as good and sexy to be a real man, a real gentleman, as it does to be treated like a lady. let’s give a nod to our forefathers and play our parts!

C.) The man should get tested for HIV, chlamydia, gonorrhea, herpes, genital warts, hpv…EVERYTHING! doesn’t it feel like its always us girls getting the testing done? it’s easy to do, so make him get tested. use sex and stuff as his incentive. pout and look cute. get it done!

5. You CAN get preggers on your period!

6. Never have unprotected sex! (everybody does, we just all lie about it! behind closed doors everyone’s using the pull out method! don’t lie bitches, I’m watching you-plus, i do it too. whoopsies!)

7. Even when it’s protected, you should always make sure he pulls out before he cums.

8. No matter what he says-cum and/or his pee is not good for clearing up zits! what a scumbag!

9. Again: the hole is sewn up and cannot be unsewn!

10. Patchouli is never ok!


11. A lot of dudes are gay. A lot of dudes aren’t gay. Your job is to figure out which are which. Good luck! Cuz I can’t tell anymore.



12. Take a bath in epsom salt at least once a day. Use it for your longest soak. It gets rid of any water you might be retaining.


13. Drink at least 1.5 L of water daily. But be wary of the dream dashers who will try to bum out your new water incentive by telling you that too much water will flush out all your vitamins and kill you. These are lame, jealous, and unhappy people. Just try to drink your water.


14. Shave your legs everyday-even though I’m a big believer in the theory that the night you DON’T shave your legs is the night you end up meeting the boy of your dreams/or sexiest makeout ever!


15. Get rid of all the negative people in your life. Toss ‘em. They’re energy drainers, and there’s no time for them.


16. Try not to be one of these energy drainers. Otherwise, you might get tossed!


17. You can’t feel bad or hurt by someone-unless u let them hurt you. I’m talking about feelings and emotions and stuff. A punch in the face will totally hurt anyone! So take control of your feelings and don’t let anyone hurt them or have power over you. Haven’t you seen the last scene of labyrinth!? “you have no power over me!” Jesus!


18. Even if u aren’t letting people hurt your feelings-be consciously aware of the assholes who try to. wish them well in your mind, and then get the fuck away from them. You don’t have to be a hater to cut the dead weight out of your life my little babies! Shit, that reminds me, I’ve gotta sort some shit out in my own life.


19. Sex makes you happy: unless you were raped or molested and it brings back weird memories. in which case, that’s totally terrible and I’m sorry. you should talk to a therapist. feel free to write to me and I’ll suggest someone qualified to help you deal with that. you are loved.


20. Movies/TV shows to watch if your pms’y or sad or just wanna feel girly and super awesome:


dazed and confused


broken english


when harry met sally


valley girl


16 candles


moonstruck


pretty in pink


notting hill


high fidelity


metropolitan


last days of disco


my wife is an actress


closer


my so called life


felicity


arrested development


Madonna documentary- I’m going to tell you a secret


unzipped-isaac mizrahi documentary


truth or dare


project runway


the hills


beverly hills 90210-old school version


tim guns guide to style


house


30 rock


freaks and geeks


conan o’brian


(light easy breezy viewing that will make you feel like a citizen of cozytown usa!) xo

Like I said I had no doing in making theses rules. It's from my new favorite blog by Alexi Wasser at IM BOY CRAZY !!! There are a lot more rules so go and check her out!

Amber Rose

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So yeah...I hate her cause she's with my man Kanye...but if I had her body I would show up to work like this EVERY FUCKING DAY!!! I'm not sure what the contacts where about...but yeah!!!

I Know What I Like

I love this picture!

It was only 4 short years ago when I lost my virginity, and that was only a few months after receving my first kiss at 19! So by no means am I sex expert. If anything I'm still a student. But only recently at the age of 24, have I actually taken charge of my own sexuality in making sure I actually enjoy myself...just as much as my partner. It's sad to say...but something I also have found common among a lot of my girlfriends, that they too went thru the same thing at one point or another of not taking charge and making sure their needs where meet as well. Granted a lot of them are younger then me or only a few years older than me, but unlike them I lost my virginity at 20, when a lot of them lost it between 15-18 years of age.

By now if you actually read my blog...you know that I had a really nasty break-up at the begging of the year with a guy that I really loved, or should I say still really do love. But when it came to our sex life, with the few exceptions at the Red Roof Inn, it was pretty *BLUH*! Now I'm sure that neither of us having a place of our own, and our constant trust issues had a lot to do with that. I'm also pretty sure my lack of taking control and making sure my needs were met as well as his also had a lot to do with it as well. Also another reason is probably because I've only dated boys who have been 1 or 2 years younger than me, which wasn't by choice! But we all know that boys mature much slower than women. So at 20-22 I was dating someone who was 18-21. And actually I've only been with 2 guys who where older than me.

So this brings me too recently. Now I think the best type of sex is committed sex, sex within a committed relationship...and that will never change. But as of recently, in the past 5 months the last 3 months has been filled with great sex...not committed sex...but great none the less. And the funny thing about that is that the one was 3 years my junior and the other, I believe has a girlfriend...but he is older than me. So both go against everything I believe, but recently I have learned so much about me, what I like and what works best for me.

With the 21 year old I have learned to say "No", "WTF are you doing?" and "Do it like this..." when before I either didn't because A.) I didn’t have the time to be specific due to parents coming home soon or B.) Just not really knowing what I was doing. And with the other guy...who I've known for like two years now, he has taught me that I am sexy, without me having to be slutty! As well as few new positions.

Now like I said, both have been great sex, but a committed relationship I highly doubt will come out of either. But I have learned a lot about what I like, enjoy and especially what I hate..."Why are you going so damn fast? I can't go anywhere you’re my ride home!”...LOL!!!

So when I do finally get that committed relationship that I really do want, I know that I will be satisfying inside and out of the bedroom, now that I know what I like. Cause you really can't please others if you don't know how to please yourself!!!

*ALWAYS BE SAFE...AND WRAP IT UP*

OH...You Can't Speak?!?

I hate when people say this to me. Especially people who really don't know me. Like, yeah when I first meet people I'm shy...but I do speak! And I usually speak first. My problem is when every time I see you "I" have to be the one to acknowledge that we are in the same room at the same time. Like the first few times...OK COOL! But then one day I'll see you and I'll just wait before I say anything, just to see how long you'll act like you don't see me. Then I'll say "Hey" and then they'll do "Oh Hey...I didn't even see you!"...how couldn't you? We in a closet BITCH! So after they fail the test by 1.) Not Speaking 2.)By acting like you didn't see me 3.)By giving me that generic ass response...I will no longer speak to you unless you start speaking to me first or until I forget not to speak to you...whichever one comes first!!! LMAO!!!

I TWEET YOU BASTERD!!!

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